***SIGH***
So close and so much still to do. I am not sure I will be able to get it all done. I get something almost done and set it aside and the pick it up the next day and rip it all out.
Never going to get things done at this rate.
Hard to focus since the kids are here, first time I will not have even one of them here. And my first holiday season with no one to really share special moments.
I have grown a lot these past two years, but I still miss him at times. I get so lonely and there are still songs that set me to crying like a baby now and then.
I know it won't be like that forever, but it still hurts so much right now. I wonder if leaving him on my birthday was a wise decision. How is that going to affect my birthdays for years to come.
Oh well.. I will cross that bridge if and when it gets here. All I can do is take it one baby step at a time. One day at a time. I have come this far, I will be just fine. The pain will decrease as time goes by.
Tomorrow is another day, I can plan for it now, and then go from there.
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